The pen and the page were once your fiercest allies. The blank screen in your word processor used to stare back at you, prime and ready to receive all of the stories, thoughts, and opinions that had been ruminating in your mind for quite some time now. But as time passed, you realized that most of the writing had been going on in your head; the ideas were only thought of but never written, experiences lived but never inscribed. The mediative practice of materializing your narratives slowly became a thing of the past. And maybe, at some point, the last thing on your mind was whether not you would get back into writing again.
Maybe for you, life happened. And you began to feel sad, perhaps even guilty. Perhaps it was a new job that consumed more of your time and energies. Or maybe your bundle of joy innocently called for more of your attention. Perhaps it was something similar to the aforementioned situations. Or maybe it is as simple as you feeling like you’ve lost your writing mojo.
Whatever your situation, there are somethings you need to know.
Firstly, you are allowed to be sad. In this space, stifling emotions to perform a facade of rigidity is not allowed. Let yourself mourn if necessary. After all, mourning is a temporary ordeal.
However, so long as you wish to move forward in your desire to write, you are not going to be defeated. Feeling defeated is one thing, but being defeated doesn’t have to be your reality. Your pen and your word processor were never your enemies. The words that you wanted to write but just never managed to were not out to taunt you. Your writing goals were not there to antagonize you with their incompletion. And if it was the rejection of your pitch that got you to abandon writing, know that it is one stepping stone closer to your “yes.”
You are not a failure for your hiatus. In fact, some unexpected lessons could come from it. As you still consider the word “writer” as a title, know that you are not an imposter for carrying it; it still applies to you if you let it. You still have an opportunity to give life to that cherished title. And it will, in turn, give life to your ideas and stories while also giving life to yourself, even on those days when writing gets difficult and your writer’s muse seems quiet.